Journal

December 2, 2014
Journal #9

Suicide

When life gets tough, it is okay to commit suicide as a means of escape. I do not agree with this sentence because life is hard, it always gets hard. People go through rough patches but thats the thing, its a rough PATCH, meaning its only temporary. It will go away, yes it will take time but it will happen. I understand that its hard sometimes and even to the point were you don't think you can take it any longer but it will get better, with time things get better. Its so sad to think that people are so cruel to one another the only way for some of us to get out is by suicide. Hearing stories about people who have or have tried to commit suicide makes me wonder what happened to the world? Was it always like this? Can we change it? Will it always be like this? These questions will probably never be answered and were going to have to accept that, but that doesn't mean we can't change it! Words can only hurt if you left them hurt you. They can be weapons very powerful ones! Its up to us to use them in the right way, because if we don't we could hurt someone to the point they would rather die then have to live another day. I'm not saying that its wrong to think about committing because at some point in their lives I believe everyone thinks about it or tries it. For those who were successful with it had been pushed over the edge. For those who have attempted but failed, it was a turning point or a new awakening. I wish I could help people who are thinking about it. I feel so helpless hearing about people who have and failed and how they had no one their to help them. No one to tell them how special they are, no one to share with them the values of life and share how lucky and grateful we should be with the life we were given.

November 24, 2014
Journal #8

Peer Pressure

Is it better to listen to advise from peers then it is to listen to advise from adults. I believe that it is not better to listen to peers then to adults. Peers may understand the situation because they may be in it or have been in it before. To me adults would understand it more than peers would. They've lived longer than our peers and may have gone through the situation and may know how to handle it. Adults can be great people to talk out your problems with because they understand peer pressure and can be great self-esteem busters! I'll admit I have fallen to peer pressure but not to an extreme like smoking, just things like eating a weird food or sneaking out at night. Falling to peer pressure is easy to do but its only okay to some extent. Doing things such as drugs and drinking is how it is understandable that adults know more than your peers. Adults understand how it can ruin your life because they have seen it happen multiple times. Peers don't seem to understand it because they always believe it won't happen to them. Thats were they're wrong, it can happen to them. It could happen to anyone. I believe it is better to listen or talk to adults than it is to peers because they understand more and are old enough to know what to do. It may be harder to talk to them because you may think they don't understand but they do. It's just they may be more judgmental then your peers because they expected more out of you and thought you would do better. The thing is its hard to decide who to listen too. I tend to talk to both equally. I have those adults I tell everything to and that I ask for help or what to do. I also have my peers that I talk to and ask to help me with things as well. It works out good that way because I get different points of view.

November 10, 2014
Journal #7

Friendship

It is better to have only one best friend. This is an opinion I do not agree with. This is because why only have one best friend? Yes there are many good things about it but yet there are also some faults to it! If you only have one friend and say they get upset with you or go away for a trip who are you going to talk to? Who will you hang out with? When you have more then one best friend you can talk to either or all of them. You can discuss problems and getting different opinions and see different points of view on to handle that situation. With only one best friend it could be difficult because you're only looking at it one way instead of many different ways. People who socialize more are more likely to be happier and better people compared to those who don't. Its not easy making friends all the time but once you find the ones you'll know! People deal with being alone a lot and even if all you have is one best friend its better than having none! People sometimes take for granted the things they have and I believe thats what friends are for, to correct them and show them all they should be thankful for! People with only one best friend seem to be a bit more lonely and very protective. It could be a good thing but it could also be bad. Protectiveness is good but only for a short while and to some extent. I have more then one best friend and I'm not sure what I would do without either of them. They help pull me up and we always correct each other no matter how much it may hurt them. We bring out the best in each other and deal with the worst as well. Its not only a curse but also a blessing to have more then one best friend. Sometimes you just want to be alone and its had to do that, other times a blessing to know that you have people right there all the time waiting to help you through your next problem. That is also another thing best friends do they help you through your problems and help you prepare for future ones. 

October 22, 2014
Journal #6

Quote

I see where he is coming from and I agree with him. Its like out of "The Fault in Our Stars", they give us the material that could be used for bad or for good but its our decision on where to act upon it. They give us the power to change things its just up to our intelligence to do so. They don't want smart people because they don't want someone to overthrow the government. I guess you could say its like Harrison Bergeron, they wanted the people dumb so they couldn't overthrow the system. The world would be so different if everyone could use their brains to their full capacity. The thing is people think that what the government teaches us is all we need to know when really that is not so. We have all these opportunities but we don't think we have the potential to achieve them. The world or government for that matter is a crazy place. They all understand what they are doing but we don't. They keep a lot from us and say its to keep us safe but I'm not to sure about that. I don't trust the government but I also don't trust many people. Trust is something that is hard for me and for many reasons. I trusted someone once, with all I had and they broke that trust, since then its been hard to trust. Even to my best friend. People may or may not trust the government but that is not my area to say, since it is not me. I can't speak for others I can only speak for myself. If I could say anything about what their opinions may be it would most likely be the same as mine, little trust but little knowledge of it. If we had more knowledge about it then I would have a better opinion on the subject. 

October 1, 2014
Journal #5

Friendship

Friendship to me is a bond between two, or more, people that is founded on them liking the same things or having the same ideas. When you're in a friendship you tend to like to spend time with them and you can relate to them very well. I have many friendships, some I would consider more like acquaintances but non-the-less a friendship. In order to form a friendship I believe the people need to have something in common or many things in common. They need to be able to be the real them, to express themselves in ways they can't always do to others. You know its not a real friendship when you can't do things in front of them, for example farting or singing like an idiot! When you are in a friendship these things seem to be natural. My friends even consider my parents theirs, many of them call my mom and dad, mom and dad. Its just how we are and what we do. I call their parents mom and dad as well and their parents don't even question it. Without friendship I think the world is a dry and boring place. I understand that many people may not be good at making friends and I feel bad for them because to me forming friendships is very important! To others though it may not matter whether they have friends or not, but deep down I feel that they are jealous or saddened at the fact that they may not have friends. I don't see how you could find enjoyment in life. Who would you talk to? What would you do? Would you be a happy person, or would you be upset all the time and make it so people don't want to be around you. Friends help give you wisdom, they don't walk the same path as you and therefore they may be able to help you through something they have already gone through, but they may not have all the questions though.

September 25, 2014
Journal #4

Accusations

Accusations are a topic everyone can relate to because we live in a world full of judgmental people. We like to accuse because we like to assume. Without even asking we accuse people because we believe we have enough evidence to. If we didn't have laws people would be put in jail for being accused of stealing or other bad things, when really they may not have done it. Im guilty of accusing people such as my younger sibling. I accuse them on a daily basis and its become just a way of life, even though I tend to be right 85% of the time. I've been accused of many things myself, like when I was accused of selling drugs behind a gas station when I haven't seen a drug in person yet! It was hard for me to accept the fact that someone actually thought I would do that! My parents knew it wasn't true so they defended me and that helped me get through it but there is still this part of me that wonders what did I ever do to make someone think I would do something like that? Out of all the things I've been accused of that would have to be the worse. I don't like being accused so I try my hardest not to do it but it seems to be the human nature, either accuse or be accused, and sometimes its both. If the world wasn't so judgmental then maybe people wouldn't get accused as often as they do. If the world didn't accuse as much I believe people would be happier and trust one another. Instead we have little trust or what trust we do have tends to get broken soon enough by people accusing us of something or us accusing them of something.


September 22, 2014
Journal #3

Hero

In order to be a hero to me you have to be a strong person on the outside even when your walls are slowly caving in. I think it takes a lot to be a hero, you have to have courage, wisdom, strength and most important faith. Faith in either yourself or anything else. My faith is in God and in him I am strong even when I'm weak. He makes me a better person. I have two heroes in my life, my father and God, two people who would risk their lives for me. Unlike God my dad has made mistakes, but because of God he is forgiven for them. I love my dad more than any human being on this planet. I would be lost if I didn't have him! He is alway there for me and is strong even when I am weak. When I broke up with my boyfriend he's the one who was there with a shoulder for me to cry on for hours at a time, and he was the one telling me everything will be alright even though it felt like the world was ending. I realize now that it wasn't, at all! At the time it felt like it and I thank him so much for being there and being my hero. He's always strong, even when he was in the hospital for three months he was always smiling! The only time he wasn't was when he was sleeping! He made it though that and it made him much stronger. He has stopped drinking now because of it, even though he rarely drank before. My mom and dad fight a lot, but yet their best friends. They never decide on things without talking it through with the other one first and I admire that. My mom put my dad through a lot and the fact that he is still there for her amazes me! I wish that if I ever got divorced my ex-husband would do the same. My dad is the brightest person I know, he can always make me laugh and can turn almost anything into a joke! He's helped shape me into the person I am. If it wasn't for him I wouldn't try as hard in school, he deserves so much and my goal in life is to give that to him. I don't have a job yet and he provides me with everything. I may be his only child by blood but he still is always there for my brother and sister to the point where they don't even know that he isn't there dad, and we like it that way.

September 16, 2014
Journal #2

Consequences

Consequences are what happens to you after an incident or a accident you have made. I believe that consequences are Gods way of saying that what you did was wrong and this is how you have to pay for it. Consequences can be good and they can be bad. It depends on what you did and how you did it. I've dealt with many consequences in my life and being that I'm only 15 means I've made many mistakes, from turning to quick while riding four-wheelers or from typing the wrong assignment. These are all things that I've done and I have to deal with, they are my consequences. I don't understand them most of the time but there is nothing I can do about it but learn from it and move on. Learning from it helps me grow into the person God wants me to be. God tests us in many ways but what matters the most is how we deal with it. Say if I had to choose to between going to church and sleeping in, and I chose sleeping in, my consequence would be the quilt I would feel all week until next Sunday when I do go to church. Consequences are a weird thing in many ways, they can be the things that make you or break you. One of the hardest things about consequences is the learning part. It's so hard to understand what you're supposed to learn from them because they aren't always clear. If they were life would be so much easier. Consequences can be either internal or external. It's something that can tear a person down on the inside and make them feel like the whole world is against them, when although it may seem like it, it's not. I've learned that one from experience.



September 10, 2014
Journal #1

Equality

To me equality means being equal to everyone or everything else. I don't believe equality exist in the world we live in today. The principle may say that they will treat each student equally but I don't believe that is true. If two kids got in a fight and one was the captain of the football team and the other was a kid who doesn't really care about anything the principle will most likely be harder on the other student then the captain. This may not be true in our school but in some thats the case. To me the only equality is the way we are in Gods eyes. Everyone is equal, no one is above anyone else no matter what they have done if they are forgiven. Once God forgives you of your sins you are considered equal, and thats something I believe we should all strive for. If the world emphasized equality more there would be less shootings, less cutting, and less suicides.   People do things they normally wouldn't because of how much people judge them, and if we were all equal there would be nothing to judge and I believe thats the way it should be. In Pre-school and Kindergarden they should start teaching kids that equality is something to strive for but that we have to except the fact that no everyone is equally and maybe if they teach it right and the kids understand we won't have to worry about school shootings, suicides, and bullying. They could all be a thing of the past. Thats the future I want my sister to live in, not one where someone is above her because they have nicer things or because they are smarter then her. In conclusion, equality is not only something to strive for but something to live by. Not everyone is as privileged as others and we need to think about them and where they come from before we start to judge.